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So, 2022 is now officially over. Normally, I would have written this reflection on December 31st, but yesterday I felt so drowsy. I end up sleeping much during the NYE.
I'm not sure why, but starting two years ago, I've made it a habit to write this reflection on my blog. Why not write another post for this year as well?
Let's see what has happened so far in 2022 and what lessons I have learned from each of those recollections.
January
Let's start from this.
Seems like, only travel--and peace, maybe, that has been achieved in 2022. Well, I also didn't expect that the marriage one would be happened last year, tho. So, just let it be.
Then, I think in 2022, we started to get addicted by Wordle, Katla, and other. At first, it seemed so exciting, but, at the end... yeah, you know that it won't spark the joy that much.
Ah, one of the highlights for this month was I took the Medical Check Up test. I relieved that overall; my body was healthy. But I knew that I have to take care of my body more. I should literally pay attention for foods that I should avoid--still I haven't done that until now. Hope in 2023 I can do that.
February
Anyway, I found this quote that month.
I know it’s okay to miss you because whatever we had was strong and beautiful. To pretend like I don’t miss you would be a disservice to everything we went through. Yet I’m finally in a place where I know that missing you isn’t a sign to try again. It’s a sign that we had a great thing. That’s it, that’s all. So please know I miss you, but I do understand we aren’t meant for each other. But I’ll still remember us for the rest of my life- and I will learn to be okay with that. — Lacey Ramburger. https://thoughtcatalog.com/lacey-ramburger/2020/04/i-miss-you-but-i-understand-we-arent-meant-for-each-other/
On this month, I was being so sarcastic to him. I didn't really remember why I was so pissed. Maybe, it was happened because I thought that he never really cares of me and knew what I want in life. He had his assumptions about me but actually, it was so wrong on another level.
March
He told me that he (once again) got tested positive for COVID-19. Ck. I really wanna scold him when I knew, but then, I still kind enough to suppress my temper and TRY my best to understand him. But yeah. He won't ever care if I did that. He even didn't realize about it.
On this month, I really like reading a lot of BL manhwa. Ah, I was glad I can find a happiness through this small matters. Why would try search for a grand happiness if the small can make you smile all the time, right?
April
It's my birthday's month! I spend my birthday with my lovely and supportive friend--which are Kak Rand, Sup, and Nurul. I was really happy that day. I hope we can meet up again this year. I really hope so.
Then, starting this month, I just know about him who can also watched k-drama like Business Proposal. It felt weird to discuss about BP with him. I did wonder, why he watched BP after all? I mean... maybe he got closer with someone, and that person recommends him to watch that. I believe he won't find this blog, so, whatever. I want to write what I want.
May
Yeay, my first official online course certificate. I am so proud of myself for this. From this, I believe I know I have managed my time well and I want to take another course after.
This month, I finally decided to go to dentist and got a lot of treatments. A lot of things should be fixed but luckily the doctor is very patients. I glad I decided to take care of my teeth.
June
When we talked about June, we couldn't skip it without talk about BTS Second chapter. Hmm. I know all along it would be happened. So, I just can pray my best for them and supporting them the best I could.
Then, finally I also managed to finish another online course this month. What an achievement for myself during the pandemics.
And I think, starting this month I also found that Notion will be very helpful for me to organize everything. Therefore, I tried my best to try utilizing it.
July
I just remember that I have that annual foundation meeting at Mandarin Hotel. What a very bizarre experience. I don't know. Sometimes, I felt so weird to stay at that 5-star hotel by myself even though it's for work related.
August
I send my favorite lyrics for a month to him. This was indeed a crazy thing that I did.
I don't think many things happened on this month. Hmm, I didn't find many notes for this month.
Ahh, I just remembered. It's full of drama for this month. The OSF Visit at Jakarta really drained my energy :/
September
Well, I got a chance to travel to Aceh. Smh. So many things that I could experience from this trip. Even though it's a little bit awkward because I only go there with Mas Donny. But overall, it's one of the memorable trips.
Before the trip, I managed to send a long wish for him. I didn't know if he ever read it, but let it be. That's just so me.
Sadly, after the trip, the reality hits me. Long story short, my supposed to be co-worker, decided to resign and that's the beginning of the attack from the fire country. Geez. I end up crying a lot in this month.
October
Que sera sera
Whatever will be will be~~
Whatever will be will be~~
I think, that was my motto for this month. I really don't care about anything that will happened on my work. I just do what I can do without thinking about the consequence.
Thankfully, I got a little bit happiness when my sister came to Jakarta. I was happy to be her guide for a moment even though we couldn't go anywhere that much.
This month, I also managed to finish another online course. I am so happy about it. Since I struggled a lot to finish this course, I felt so proud of myself.
Well, about him, I got the confirmation that I am the only person he chatted at Telegram. Sigh. Yet, he still doesn't want to contact me through another way,
November
Finally, I gained my confidence to retake the Sejong test. At the very least, I have made some progress and managed to get 2A.
My highlights for this month? I went to Banyuwangi for travel and got the chance to go home. Then, what I didn't expect to be happened to me, I got tested positive for COVID-19. My goodness. After three years I managed to avoid it, at the end I finally got positive.
December
Still have to do the isolation because of COVID-19. But I am happy cause I can spend my time at home. I really grateful for Astro, Halodoc, and also Healthy Go for helping me through my isolation day.
On the last month last year, so many things have also happened.
Me, Nurul, and Supri finally got a chance to visit Museum Tanah dan Pertanian at Bogor. The museum is so cool, and we are very happy to go there. So many funny experiences we got that day.
Then, Me, Supri, and Kakrand spent the last holiday in 2022 with visiting Ragunan Zoo, eating all you can eat at Sogogi, and also karaoke.
Things that we didn't expect at all is about Nurul who have to move from Depok to Surabaya. We were kinda sad about it. I hope she can manage to live there, and we can also meet very soon.
So, what's 2022 means for me?
I felt calmer than 2021. If I go through my notes, I know sometimes I felt so frustrated of something, but nowadays, I can more embrace it.
I don't know if I can reach it on 2023 or not, but I do really wanna continue my study. I should start my preparation very soon.
About my love life, at this point, I know there's only a tiny chance we could be together. All of the rejection and heartbreak sometimes felt so real. But I just know, he just didn't care at all about me. So, I just want 2023 made me become a better version.
So, thank you for the memories, 2022! And, hello, 2023!
Sincerely,
Ra
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Ra
23.01.01
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